Suddenly that words were often talked in my office. People should be accountable for what he is doing. Whether he delegates it to someone else, he still accountable to ensure that the delegates do what they supose to do.

A salesperson is responsible to ensure that all the words in pre-sales is recorded properly in the contract. Now that one clause slipped from the contract, and suddenly out of nowhere, the salesperson asked me to explain it to the customer. He got all the recognition and I got nothing.

Smartass, isn’t he?

Almost 6 years ago, when I join this company, we only have 8 persons, including the boss and secretary. We know each other, know what they are doing, what they do in personal life. With the company culture focused on people, we are getting very well, struggling together to survive the IT burst in year 2000.

Six year later, we are now a 25 persons department. We have several projects, with project managers fighting to get their resources. Two troubled projects sucks almost half of our resources. As for people relatoin, I barely know more than half of the group.

Are we growing to fast that we loss the feeling of family and relationship? We used to have a regular monthly meeting with the group, where we would share the success, problem, and having lunch together. Growing is good, but at what expense?

If you say beginners luck, that’s what happened to me in the last two days. I was trying a new investment starting last Monday, and the last 2 days has given me a very good outcome.

Unfortunately, today seems that my beginners luck has running out of steam. The investment goes south, taking out my profit and some amount of my capital.

It is never good to lose money, but probably it wouldn’t be so bad if we can learn from it. I might made several mistake at the same time. First, I almost ignore any analysis before going into the market. I should have watched the spread better before jumping in. Then, I break the rule of discipline. I should have cut my loss this evening when it is still small.

Well, they say that investing is about one-third science, one-third emotion and one-third discipline. Let’s hope that the last decision I made this evening could help me reduce the loss, or even make some tiny profit.

Almost everybody know the story about Narcissus. He (or She?) was busy ditting nearby a lake, doing nothing but adring himself through the reflection on the lake. One day, he fell into the lake, drowned and die. At the place where he fell, grow a flower, which is named Narcissus. Soon, the water in the lake turn salty. “Why are you crying? Do you feel sorry for Narcissus”, asked the Goddess. “No, it is because, when he sitting beside me, I can look myself through the reflection in his eye”, the lake replied.

– Adapted from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Since then, the word Narcist or Narcism is used to call a person who have too much love for himself. Too much that, he thought that he is the best, noone is better than him.

Do such behaviour can be generalized that, when someone is proud of himself, take the initiative to lead, or maybe a little bit boasting to promote himself is considered Narcist?

Adating word from my friend, maybe he just incidentally know how good he is……